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Heavy Metal Mother

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Category: Poetry
Published: Thursday, 02 September 2021 07:15
Written by B.Y. Penman
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craving concrete and iron
to steel this soft flesh and tired bone
against the crushing weight
of being everything to everyone

nerves thrum like guitar strings
amped up to beyond
when the phone rings
and it's you

cut my teeth on uncertainty
raised on chaos and tears
curled up at night with my fear
easy isn't for me

learned there's no saving grace
no knight in shining armor
to come and save me from it all
life is no fairy tale in the end

now just a quiet warrior
leaking words in place of tears
that dried up long ago
when love wasn't enough to fix us all
and I learned to let go

B.Y. Penman 2021

 

 

Human Too

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Category: Poetry
Published: Thursday, 02 September 2021 06:51
Written by B.Y. Penman
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I am a woman
but I am more
than just a womb and orifices
to birth and please

I am a mother
but I am more
sometimes, I don't want to talk
about your problems
again and again
it doesn't mean I don't love you
it doesn't mean I don't care
I hear you
but I am human too

I know I can't fix all that ails you
can't prevent every scrape and fall
but I can listen with compassion
until I must withdraw
and find beauty to wash me clean
so I may start anew

I am a wife but I am more
than hands and lips to wake you
the siren's call of the day
sometimes pulls me far away
and it's your hands and lips I need
to draw me back to now
when I am lost in the other
it's not because I don't love you
it's not because I don't care

sometimes being everything to all
breaks this body down
but I am learning to be enough for me
so I can still be here for you
I am human too

B.Y. Penman 2015

Pain and Cigarettes

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Category: Poetry
Published: Sunday, 29 August 2021 05:06
Written by B.Y. Penman
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when I was 21
I let them
take chunks
of flesh from me
with their sharp words,
tongues cutting like
a surgeon's blade
deftly reducing me
to a perfect size 7,
a model
of what they wanted
me to be;
starved myself,
existed on pain
and cigarettes,
slowly shrinking
into a sliver
of silence

B.Y. Penman 2021

Not a Love Poem

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Category: Poetry
Published: Sunday, 29 August 2021 05:54
Written by B.Y. Penman
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if I wrote love poems
I would write of your eyes
how they spark a warmth
and draw me into your soul
or how they crinkle with kindness
and speak of the wise man within

if I wrote love poems
I would write of your quiet
way of being
how comfortably you fit
or how you move me
to move myself
and rub words together
until they catch

but I don't

(for Alex with love)

B.Y. Penman 2010

 

When I was 5

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Category: Poetry
Published: Sunday, 29 August 2021 04:43
Written by B.Y. Penman
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when I was 5
and alone
a handstitched, felt puppet
wrapped in red tissue paper
tied up with string
was all I had 
to cling to
at Christmas
in the foster home
where they sent me
when you went away


a small, scared child's hand
reaching for forbidden comfort,
"It's not Christmas yet." they said
but it was all I had of you, of home
a tissue-wrapped present
hid beneath a strange bed;
I touched the crinkly paper
and thoughts of you flowed
along with the tears


a man with missing eyebrows
and burned fingertips 
looked at me
across a cold-Formica kitchen table,
"Don't be afraid." they said
"A gas explosion took them"
I grew up fast
and hard
when I was 5
and alone

B.Y. Penman 2021


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